You are drasta of everything and you are mukt. We see ourselves from others eye. And we forget drasta and become drisya. If we look at darpan of others we forget ourselves. Darpan is mirror of others. Someone else says we are beautiful, some say we are ugly and some say we are smart, some say we are dull. Both has come inside and meets inside, and we are split. We have collected a crowd. We have looked at various mirror. They don’t tell about ourselves they say about themselves. Like circus house mirrors, some shows us tall, some shows us short. Opposites collect inside together, and we think we are this meeting. And hence we are in vhaya, and fear, and we worry what if people say I am fool, and tall or short and stuff.
Gurdijeff says, to know the atman, you have to leave the crowd. In society, it’s difficult to know about us because people give glances of who we are. And we live for these glances. One story, one politician dies and 2 years before his wife had already died, and when wife waits for him, he says to wait. He wanted to know who mourned for him. He was carried in military truck, that arthi dhul was there. Many people were present in his death. He was happy. Wife asked why is he happy, he says that had he known all these people would be present, he would die early. People die for crowd. They live for crowd. We don’t ask who I am because we are interested in others opinion. What others say, we collect them all. And people Mann and reason changes and hence the collected items change a lot. We are hence split. In this conflicting opinion we form ourselves. We form the atman. We only drag, we don’t reach anywhere.
So 1st sutra: we are drasta. There are 3 types of people, who become drisya, another who become darsak (better than the first but not much), 3rd who become drasta.
1. Drisya: When we become drisya, we become objects. There is no atman there, we don’t see atman in politician, actors because they live to become drisya. Their whole life revolves around showing them off to the people to look good in front others. They wear a mask, they are hypocrite. Inside they become rotten.
2. Another is darsak that means crowd. For drisya, darsak is needed. Both need each other’s. For politicians, u need people around. For dancer, u need an audience. That audience is darsak. People have become darsak, people watch television and radio. 6hrs a day they watch television, football match, kusti, cricket, Olympics. Only audience is there in the world in maximum. With huge sacrifice, you can become drisya, so it’s easy to be a darsak. Without darsak, drisya looks foolish. Imagine a politician waving a flag alone without any spectator, a cricket match happening in stadium without any audience. The heart of cricket lies in the audience. You don’t dance, you watch others dance. You don’t sing, you hear others sing. All urja has gone out from the darsak. Like a murda. Someone shows and you keep on looking. Both need each other. A wife who is masochist and a husband who is a sadist are made for each other. Each disease has 2 face. Drisya and darsak are that two face. Females like to be an exhibitionist a drisya and male a spectator, a darsak.
3. People make mistake saying darsak is drasta. That is a mistake. Darsak means dristi is on others, drasta is dristi on ourselves. Huge difference, a revolutionary difference. In watching ourselves only awareness lies. In darsak, u forget ourselves completely. In cinema we forget ourselves, that’s why there is a crowd there. People want to forget themselves their misery because there u forget your troubles. Illness, death, troubles are forgotten while being a darsak. No remembrance is there in darsak. That urja is forgotten. In drasta, all curtains are left, no thoughts hence all is clear. Few people are drasta, like Buddha, Mahavira. Drisya and darsak are many, drasta is one. Imagine a moon is there in the sky, the reflection is there in lakes, ocean, water, rivers, and ponds. So many reflections, but moon is one. Same way, darsak is a reflection, real is the drasta. In drasta there is no icchya to be a drisya and a darsak. No wish to be validated by others. No wish that others would say that you are beautiful or handsome or smart. Drasta sees that there is one moon, although reflection are many. Darsak is many. Spiritual man takes the leap and jumps directly to the moon.
We have become habituated with the thorn so much that we are suspicious when a flower blooms. Our bandhan is to forget ourselves and see others while being a darsak. One mukti is to see ourselves as drasta. See ourselves. See who is looking at the drasta too. See the seer. Don’t forget who is seeing, you will forget because its habit, but remember, see who sees. Always remember the seer, then when you see, something arises. A mukti ka Ananda, even in one moment. If you read or listen while forgetting yourselves, you are darsak. So remember yourself while reading this, then you are drasta. If dhyan goes to the object then you are darsak, but while reading, catch the one who is looking. Catch and remember who is looking. See the seer. Suune walo ko pakdo, else u will read what is not even written. In behosi, how will u know? If u hear in sleep, how u will know clearly, Mann makes it cloudy. See the seer, then clarity arises and u can see what is written. See the living asthakavakra. While listening or reading, listen to the one who is listening too. If u forget object it’s not a problem, but don’t forget the seer, the listener. A moment will come when you will speak and u are seeing the speaker. U are listening and then are the speaker both.
